Anxiety has been a constant presence in my life. From separation anxiety to agoraphobia, I’ve spent 25 years plagued by panic attacks and debilitating fears that have stopped me living my life to the fullest, always full of nervous energy over what it will morph into next. Both medication and therapy have been hugely helpful, but having accepted that it’s always going to be a condition that I’m going to struggle with in one way or another, I’m always on the lookout for new and innovative ways to provide relief.
At the time we were all confused. It just seemed like she was completely high off her face or needed to be locked up in a mental asylum. But after struggling with various deists era for many years - I get it. I’ve even been there myself sometimes, moments from doing something mid massively regret (and a few times actually gone through with it).
The last few months have certainly brought a lot to light for me. I’ve witnessed my strength and my weakness, my fragility as a human being and the insane twists and often unpredictable turns of the human mind. They have taught me a lot too; about myself, about the intricacies of mental illness and about the unnoticed plight of those around us who struggle with different diseases and disorders that often go undiscussed.
Blogging was initially thought to be the ultimate introverted activity; a virtual diary in which to share personal thoughts on a plethora of topics - whatever tickled your fancy really. It was this way for a fair amount of time, long before the takeover of the beauty blogger, but soon enough social media platforms like Twitter and Instagram started to take off and what was once an introvert’s hobby soon transformed into an industry that very heavily depends on being loud and proud, for lack of a better phrase.